TATA 2010!

told myself that i could do it, but when i saw you, i guess i just died inside & yet i had to force myself to put on that smile.

Hello everyone, just another hour to a brand new year :D
i hope that 2011 shall be an Awesome one for me!
Its a special year for me though,
my sweet 16 ; my Os ; my last year in YTSS.

a little quickie of the past two weeks & a conclusion on 2010!

Spend Christmas Eve at my Aunt's house ( mummy's side).
to be honest, it was totally boring. 
I just sat in a corner and did my own stuff, BUT
after my uncle came, we played cards & drank (:
so that part of the party was better :D


Had Christmas lunch at Godma's :D YAY!
it was so fun, that i really enjoyed myself & bonded alot with my Fam!
think i gained loads of weight with the yummy goodies :/

attended Julien's birthday in the evening :)
it was suppose to be a BBQ but it poured so heavily that we had
to shift it all to her house! Aunty Joey's so cute lah!

All of my cousins and I stayed over at Godma's & woah did we have fun (: watching a scary show at like 2 am at night & cam-whored with
Charis's camera :D

i loveeeee the CHANG FAMILY to bits & pieces (L)

Had retest for A math, E math & Comb science this week.
It was a total waste of time cause it was the same paper.
just had to memorise EOY's answers. Lame.

but the best part was to spend the Noon at Shann's (:
Watched SAW 5, it was so gruesome! Me & Shann kept screaming
while Eunice was on her way to Sleepland (:


Okay okay, 2010 time! (:

this year was a pretty rough year for me.
But i learnt alot & had some pretty good experience (:
is a 15 year old teen suppose to go through this? 
though i still have some regrets but what's done can't be undone.

i learnt to move on, to let go, to be strong.
and though that day, i dreaded seeing you, it kinda made me happy.
it was a heart-ache, it killed me in fact.
But i had to put on a brave front & endure.
in fact i was pretty proud of myself for that 3 hours :D

but it kills me to know that you're not part of my life anymore.
Poof, just gone like that.
But thank you for all the memories, for all the fun, everything (:
iloveyou.

2010 made a better person, leader.
To grow & gain experiences. To learn from my mistakes.
taking up new responsibilities.

12ytsc, i'm so proud to say that we've made it :D
yes we have! (:

Hmmm, i have not been putting much effort for my Academics this year. No more time for fun & no more distractions. This is gonna be my final battle & i will give it my best shot.
that's right, NO MORE DISTRACTIONS.

This year, made me realise how much everyone cared for me.
My Fam especially. My Aunts, Uncles, Cousins (:
thank you for the encouragement you all have given to me.
the daily nags (: hahahs, but also not forgetting the time when
you all rang daily to see how was my papers.
How all of you fork out the time for me, to love you gave :D
thank you.

Gong gong & Ah Gong left me this year. Not a very nice feeling.
i missed you, i really do. And at times, when i'm really lost,
i end up talking to Gong Gong in my room. Wishing he was there, to jokingly chide me and call me "BongKang". (: i miss his smell.

Thank you Jare'el Chang for vomiting so much blood this holiday (:
more than enough to donate it to the Blood Drive!
" Chi ah Chi ....." forever ringing at my Ear (:

Lastly, Clique. Babes, thank you so much for being there for me :D
Esp the last few months (; i really appreciate it! All the fun, joy, laughter & craziness for 365 days of this year :D
shall cut all the mushy crap which we all say all the time!
but lastly, I LOVE YOU BABIES *Muacks!

another whole new year, another bag of fun :)
which is time, for you to talk to me right.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

LETTING GO & MOVING ON. LITTLE PIECES LEFT.

Hey people (: its 9 more days to christmas!
Yay, *raising arms up in the air, all the presents & the the tempting food :D

I've learn to move on & let go. To get on with life, but to keep the memories because they are mine to keep. If you can move on & not care about me anymore, why should i continue to bother & make myself miserable? i should love myself & pamper myself to the fullest. you'll regret it one day, you will. Guilt will eat you alive, no doubt. And though sometimes the memories just play back in my head like a movie, and i'll still shed a tear or two, i know that i've gotten over you. Well, not fully yet but i'm almost there. i love you.

In a snap of a finger, the holidays are ending soon. :(
Awwww, darn sad. I don't wanna go school at all.
Phobia of books, teachers, pens, papers.

Met Nisa yesterday :D chatted alot bout stuff.
Guys. Girls. School. Exams. People. Love.
And we were somehow staring at this couple who were making out!
It was damn funny cause they realised that we were staring at them!

Nisa made loads of sense, she did.
She made me realised that some stuff are not that important for now. How some things can wait, how some things can't. How love can make a person change or different.

Nisa, came to my rescue (: I love Akip :D

LOVE SUCKS

Ever wonder why God wanted us to have Love when it actually hurts us. Love is the only thing that makes us go Up High High and bring us deep Down Down.

Its so complicated yet so easy.
To open your heart and accept someone.
To trust that person entirely and allow him/her to have you.

To allow that person to heal your wound but
let him ends up riping it open and making it deeper.

that's Love.

But on the other hand, Love is the best thing that will ever happen to you! It makes you feel loved,  feel like you're being cared for.
Its like spoiling and going the extra mile for that person.

The memories will still linger, it will not fade.
feelings go, memories stay (:
and someday, you'll regret it. :D for everything that has happened NOW.