Hello Everyone!! I'm so distracted by this GIF thing because 1) I didn't know the existent of this particular setting in Blogger 2) I didn't create this GIF, it was just suddenly created don't know how & don't know who did this. Holyyyy this GIF thingy is amazing!! But this is a really long ago picture - when I was down with dengue plus a burnt thigh and arm (see if you spot a burnt wound on my left arm above)
Anyways, figured that I take time to blog because I've been away from this space for a really long time due to work and I guess it's time to be back. Was going through my post settings and saw that I have two draft post waiting to be typed - my first ever extraction & Grad night'15. But those can wait for the time being I guess.
Now, I need to get use to blogging again & figure out what to share because alot has been happening.
What am I doing right now?
As of the end of August, I'm 4 months into work (20 more months before I finish my bond & I can't wait to be a student again, damn do I miss all those student privileges) & on the 4th of August, I was a confirmed staff of the company yay!!
I'm an English Teacher for a class of 11 toddlers and they sure do drive me crazy but the amount of love and joy they bring to me makes up for the insanity too hahaha! So I'm pretty much working from Mondays to Fridays and one Saturday a month.
Because I'm always so tired out from work, I spend my free time with Kai, my family, catching up with friends from time to time, resting, doing work and prepping for class (you'll can never imagine the amount of work to be done) and I'm currently doing yoga once a week!
How have I been for the past few months?
Even after 4 months into work, I'm still adapting to many things and definitely learning alot (somehow learning never seems to stop, I'm constantly learning). I miss being a student, esp the amount of holidays given to us but I feel like I've grown as an individual as well.
Stepping into society at a really young age helped me view things/people/situation from many perspectives and it has forced me to really step out of my comfort zone to deal with situations I dislike, face different kinds of people, solving different situations and really understanding the black, white and grey areas of society. If I thought Poly was a good platform to really understand people from all kinds of backgrounds and learning to deal with them, well I was wrong. Poly is merely the cherry from the huge sundae and I guess it has really made me more aware of the people around me and the amount of stuffs I wanna disclose about myself and open up to others.
For the past few months, I've been through many feeling cycles for work. There's the dreading kind, the motivated kind, the inspired to make a difference kind and the positive kind. I've had my fair shares of good days, bad days and very frustrating days. It's been a tough journey thus far especially without having friends around but I guess it has built me into a stronger & more independent individual.
I've been learning to better manage my time (because there's a never-ending list of things to do), manage my self-expectations, stretching my patience, finding the inner strength and will to support and push myself and really learning alot about toddlers.
I'm still learning my role of being a main teacher like what I've to do on a daily basis etc and still adapting to being a working adult. I take back my words on wanting to go out and work because right now, all I wish for is to be a student and study!! To all you studying folks out there, better cherish your studying days.
In the past few months, I've had many burn out days and I honestly wished for breaks, long vacays but I guess this is just reality. I'm just really thankful for all the endless support, positive encouragements and love from Kai, my family & friends because I would never have come this far while remaining sane.
Kai & I are still stuck together like glue if ya wondering hahaha! We turned two this June and we are still insanely in love with each other. The past few months was a new milestone with new challenges for us because I started working and we (or rather just me) had to adapt to many new things. Like Kai having hols while I had to work, lesser time together as compared to before, late dinners depending on my working shift, Kai having to constantly encourage me and really blast tsunamis of positivity into me because I went through a period where I was tired, unmotivated, angsty etc and it was tough.
But I'm really glad that we went through all of it together as a whole and faced and solved the challenges as a team! It has definitely made us stronger, understand each other even more and also further prove to each other that we wanna spend the rest of our lives together despite all odds that we're gonna face.
I'm honestly very very thankful for Kai and am immensely blessed because he's mostly the reason why I pulled through till today. He's also the reason why I look forward to the end of a long day on nights we meet. Thank you love, for being my welfare manager and constantly injecting positivity into me. Thank you for the endless comfort you bring and thank you for loving me. I'm already counting to the days that we go home together - home as in our own home because ending every day with Kai makes the day the best day ever.
Okay, I'm done with updating my life so far! Can't wait to fork out time to update more about my happenings! Have a good weekend everyone!!
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