Tree Top Walk

Hehe, hello there! Not sure why but I just wanted to update this space with some recent happenings. Missed you my first internet journal (': I feel a lil foreign because it's been a while since I've last blogged and I might not commit to this but I just wanted to be back. (*inhales the aroma of cookies, hehe baking choco-chip cookies right now!)

After being busy for a few weekends, we finally had the time to head out and breathe in some fresh air on a nice Sunday morning! (: It felt so so sooo good to be out in Mother Nature's embrace and spending quality time together, not on work, not running errands but just being with each other. We had various discussions about life, friends, things we've observed, the other visitors of the park & our future. We did silly antics and laughed till we were breathless. It was a good getaway from work and school. We've been on more nature hikes this year and I'd hope to make it at least a monthly thing. 

With more adulting commitments on both our hands, nothing-to-do weekends are now a big luxury for us. There are weekends where Kai and I take turns to be swamped with essays and school work, some weekends are only of us being busy and some weekends are errands and events weekends. Currently as of now, staying home and doing activities together, just being in our bubble are our fave ways to spend the weekend.

In a blink of an eye, we're 3/4 done with 2019. Where did all the time go? After turning 21, somehow time seems to scoot by a lil way faster than I hope. But just like every year, it's filled with a different kind of adventure, highs, lows and lil moments. That's why, I feel that every year is special in its own way, shaped by the different milestones. This year's leaned towards the 'stepping out of my comfort zone' theme and it has made me grow so much. In terms of being more self-reliant, independent and having the balls to stay firm on my stand instead of going along with peers, in fear of missing out and being different. This year, I stayed more true to myself and this process allowed me to sieve through friendships and cherish the genuine and authentic ones. Cookies are done whoop! In the midst of the hustle, I'd like to come here a lil more often before the year ends.

xx.

Melbourne's vicinity

Very backdated roll from my visit to Melb last June

On a roll with developing my rolls (also because I've got extra kaching to develop them), excited to get my 4 rolls of Vietnam next week!! I've got an inkling that they'll turn out good *cross fingers

I have a very bad habit of not completing the things that I've started. For instance, I have never finished documenting my travels, be it vlogs or photos. I don't seem to end projects that I've started neither do I follow through habits which I try. Sigh, not good Chi. This is something to reflect upon and work on.

Blogging seems to always be on my head because it feels like a personal reflection for my day and it somehow puts me in a good mood. But I always end up procrastinating and not doing it because of the lack of time. They say time is about how well you utilize it to make it enough but there really isn't enough time?? Anyhow, tonight I am determined to post an entry because there is so much going on in my head.

THOUGHTS OF THE NIGHT:

1/ Milestone: Attending a wedding with Eunice

2/ Losing my drive for essays

1/ New milestone for Eunice & I: Attending a wedding together

Just came home from Hannah's wedding (aka Eunice's eldest sissy) and I went there as Eunice's plus one hehe. Growing up, I've never really gotten the chance to properly interact with Eunice's three sisters apart from our 'hellos' and 'goodbyes'. And of them all, I was the closest to Hannah because she was home more often when I was over and maybe because, we're both teachers. I was thrilled when Hannah extended a invitation to her wedding and also because it was gonna be my first wedding with Eunice! Teehees. It initially was a lil awkward to be sitting with her sissy's and their husband/fiance while Eunice was busy doing her MOH duty but they were really nice to check up on me and initiate small convos. Slowly, we started talking more and I really enjoyed myself. So this is how it feels like to have older siblings/cous. 

I've always wanted to have older siblings since I'm the oldest on both sides (well, 4th oldest on my dad's). The conversations are different. And I quite like it. Also, really thankful for the ride by her 3rd sissy and husband and for making me feel more comfortable though Eunice was busy. Thanks for making your fam, my fam too babe <3 p="">

2/ Sigh, essays are the bane of my life now

In other breaking news, I have 2 major essays to complete by next weekend and I only started on my first. My drive for completing them is near 0 and I'm somehow not bothered by it. And that is freaky. This term was intense in terms of the frequency in between our essays deadlines and I think I haven't had a good mental break for my brain to properly recover. Hence the lack of drive. I just wanna do nuts over this 2 week break, give my brain a break. It is this cycle that eats up bits of my motivation here and there and overtime, it accumulates and I am so done. How liddat? Can my essay magically write itself? Sigh, I need to get my drive back. Need.

xx.

Phuket Visuals (Sneak) / Mentally Drained

Sneak peek of Phuket visuals captured in film.

Didn't want to cave in to procrastinating this roll of film because it was just way too beautiful to put it here and I have so many more incoming visuals. I am most pleased with this roll of film thus far because the photos are way way wayyyy too stunning! It definitely was a pleasant surprise for myself when I plugged in my USB at the photo machine to check if my scans were in there. TOO BEAUTIFUL! Hopefully I have done some justice to how what my eyes captured during that trip.

Been meaning to type for awhile but there always seems to be something climbing up to the top of my to-do list & it has been a cray, very, very cray month.

FEBRUARY HAPPENINGS:

- Chinese New Year

- 24th Birthday

- Practicum  & back-to-back Essays

- Getting confirmation on Vancouver (!)

Yes, never think that I would have the opportunity to fly to the other side of the world for a month's worth of Summer Programme! Wish I jotted the initial feeling and excitement when I first got the news because the process of settling and gaining information, miscomms from school, finances & now settling flights hasn't been the easiest and it's starting to take a toll. Travelling without your most comfortable people can be a really taxing thing. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the company of the people I'll be heading there with but I know that we're not close to the extend of understanding each other's quirks and peeves which makes it a little scary. People say an overseas trip with whoever ya traveling with can either make or break a friendship/relationship. And that scares me. The friendship is progressing slowly and we're starting to really get to know one another but this month's worth trip is accelerating the 'getting-to-know-each-other' process a lil too quick. I only hope no friendships will be harm in the month and that everyone will take things in stride positively. 

Has been a mentally taxing week for me & I'm just looking forward for alone time tomorrow night, stayover at Karin's on Fri and the weekend with Kai. It's really all that I ask for. Today has been a really odd day - might've hit the limit of my mental energy but also a day which I feel very loved by different groups of people and for that, I'm indeed very thankful. It's also the first time I broke down because of school matters and also in school.

My parents, who took time to research and check flights for me and are willing to spend a little more to ensure my safety and comfort. Kai, for checking in on me. Anna, for lending me a listening ear and comforting me. Aussy, Ashley & Ben for the very sweet gesture of getting me my fave avocado milkshake just because y'all happen to see my crying outside the study room. Y'all didn't have to but y'all did. Perhaps it meant nothing to do that, but to me, in that moment, I was too touch and lost for words. Thank y'all for showing me care in your own ways. It was a total shocker because we've not hung out for quite awhile and I thought our phase was over. But no, you guys still cared (': And lastly, Clara, for always pampering me, allowing me to really be me and embracing it all, widening my perspectives and for believing in me, always. When most people try to bring me down, you are one of the few who'll always believe in me and empower me to be better. I really am so so loved and I am indeed thankful.

xx.