ASSUMPTIONS.

i guess you do know how i feel then.

i don't know what reason it may be but you gotta know that its killing the hell out of me. you won't know how much it actually hurts, as if someone tore my flesh and ripped my heart.

Yesterday was officially the One month countdown to the big Os :(

Spent Fri night on the phone with Tanz :D love H2Hs, esp with Shann cause we practically talk bout anything & everything. You're one lucky girl baby to have him, appreciate it (:

After that, Qing Huang called and we catched up over the phone (Y)

Hahas, we were all so childish yet immature when we were so young. Was laughing my ass off when we talked bout us playing pranks on teachers and all. Chatted till 5 and hit the sacks.

Spent Sat having tuition and hitting the books. Geez, everything is  revolving around the books now. Sigh, really can't wait for all this to end. We're even planning to lepak and shop and everything even before the Os. Kinda sinful bout that though (: hees

be yourself and be proud of it.

because there'll never be another you (:

love yourself, pamper yourself, cherish yourself.

that's right, be appreciative of yourself.

you're perfect the way you are.

off to hit the books now (:

xoxo, babies!

Collectives

A short break after completing Situational Writing (: (Y)

Night study started this week and boy is it productive. Well, seeing everyone around me really mugging makes me
Motivated to study too. Plus the awesome teachers who actually stay back to help us ! (: Awww aren't our teachers just sweet lil things?

I wish I'll have more time to
Complete papers and such.
Time seems to be running very quickly now and its never slowing down :(

Had lunch with Clique today (L) omg I miss my babes so much :( it's like ages since we sat and really talk. Looking at everyone now, I can't believe how time flies, we used to be small pesky energetic lil girls and now look, we've all grown up (:

Stepping into the council room this morn made me really miss council :/
Seeing how the sec threes goof around actually reminded me of how the 12th used to just lepak, talked crap and all. Our bond, that special bond. (:

Alright, back to the books now babies! (: if you ain't liking what you see,
Just scram off, no one's forcing you
To.

It's time you take over the reins and take control (:

Shattered Glass Heart

The weekends are gonna end again :(
its funny how school days are like so long while the weekends are so darn short!


At Godma's place now :D watching over my Cous while the Adults are at Suntec looking the the Chan Brothers Travels Promo. Might be going to Korea at the end of the year! Plus Godsis & I might be flying to Aussie, Melbourne to find our Cous & Baby Luke (L)
Yeah, adult-free (Y) Hahahas, looking forward to it!


just finished eating chocolate fondue! Chocolisious <3
Doing POA now and gonna do more Physic later on. 
Thinking if we should buy KFC later on. Hahas, Godsis fantasising bout American Actors right now. Hilarious (:


Went to Warren this morn to play badminton & hit the Gym :D
it was an Awesome workout (Y) been so long since i actually worked out. Geez, so fattish!


to sum it up, it was a pretty productive weekend :D
36 more days to O levels and counting :( worried
hope i'll like ace it :( sigh, studying sucks.


GODSIS IS ACTING WEIRD NOW!
" OMGGGGG, HE'S SOOOOO HOT AHHHHHH! WE'RE GONNA GET MARRIED AND OUR KIDS WILL BE MIXED! AHHHHHHHH! HE'LL BE LIKE ACTING AND I'LL BE THERE TO WATCH HIM WITH OUR KIDS AHHHHH!"  


all about y.o.u

Emptiness

Seesh, it's days like today that actually suck :( I don't know what's up with me.
Tsk, i hate it when my heart rules my head.

What a love-sick fool I am.
I actually silently prayed that God would give us a chance, but i guess not.

I have no idea what's through your mind, boy. Did you really miss me
Or was it just out of impulse. :/
shucks, you never fail to do that to me All the time.

Dejected, disappointed, crushed,
Hurt. That could just sum up how I feel now. I never put my guard up against you because i trusted you, believed
You. Though time and time you disappointed me but I never once lost that trust in you.

It's gonna be year, but I'm not a slightest bit over you. The impact you've made on me is just so great. Prolly because you were my first guy bestf and you were the love of my life.
And still is.

I'll always contain my happiness when i see you. I want to flash a huge grin and give you a hug so badly.
I wanna talk to you without feeling the least bit of awkwardness.

Everything, reminds me of you.
No matter what I talk about,
You'll be my topic. You revolve round my mind constantly, frequently, all the time. I wonder if you ever knew.

I love you more than you could imagine. I wanna walk down the aisle with you and spend my life with you.
Because you were everything I ever wished for, honest. You're that IT guy.

Friends have been constantly telling me nagging at me to forget you and move on. But I can't bring myself to.
I'll say I'm over you and such but whattheheck, they're just fibs.
I've to be strong and pretend I'm fine, pretend that I don't give a damn bout you but deep inside I'm so frail.
I'll be all smiles everyday
Cause I don't wanna people around me to unhappy.


Every night, you'll be in my prayers, always. I've never loved anyone this much. When I'm down, you're the
First to come my mind. I'll go through our pictures and just chuckle to myself, thinking how cute we were. (:

After typing it out, I feel a thousand times better :D I feel lighter! Don't bother reading those bullshit, it's just my way of destressing.

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.

That goddamnit smile.

Woah typing using Daddy's Ipad to is so weird! (:
Everything's just so HUGE! me likeee (:

Holy shit, i think my Bro's breaking voice! Eeeks :D
That's damn cool man since he's the only teen guy in this household.
Whoooo, currently watching Giuliana & Bill Season 2 now * grins from cheek to cheek
I've been waiting for this Season for years already.

Oh yeah, today's my last paper! :D
POA was bullshit :( I really suck at doing accounts. Seesh :/

My clothes are finally here :D excited to try them on!
Alright off to watch my show now!

Countless thoughts.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Well, how true is that old phrase? (;

Hees, had plenty of surprises installed for me this weekend! (:

Nationals was a blast :D saw people whom I've not seen in a gazillion years!
Didn't managed to lepak with Wes, Halim and all though :( cause they were busy coaching and I was busy managing the fighters. But i still had my fair share of fun :D

Heart to heart with Nic! (:
Love heart-to-hearts! <3
Proud of Nic for putting up an awesome match with Zakirah!

Thing it's time to give the team a brand new makeover!
We need the bond, the fighting spirit and everything else back.

Good matches, real thrilling! (:
Chris & Derrick Sir fought real well too.
And boy did Wes look professional! Hees, it's his first time coaching!

Had dinner with team on Sunday at Sakura, food was so so but the main thing was that we all spent quality time together (Y)

Prelims this week :( sigh, think I screwed up my Sciences badly! Tsk, me no likeee science one bit. I can never get it. Memorized the formula but I couldn't apply it. Dejected :(

Pearlyn's became Jacq & my second home :D lepaked at her place this entire week during long breaks and such! Love it when the three of us spend good old quality time together! (L) love them to bits!

You should see the smile on my face whenever I received your text. (: it was priceless. So how long are you gonna stay this time round?

Boy did I miss you.

Stupid Cupid.

Hey lovies! (:
Gonna make this quick cause I'm currently mugging for Chem :(
I think I'm an Science-idiot, Chem makes no sense at all!
But I'm determined to memorize it and ace Tomorrow's test :D

Goddamnit, my sissy threw my baby on the floor :(
Bitchface >:( argh! Think she's possessed or something.
It all started out as a joke but it turns out she's no joker.
There's like a dent at the side. My poor baby.

Met the team on sat at Sir's :D
Hell yeah, after donkey years!
Catched up and all. Misses those lil devils.
Lepak at the stairs with Nic and had a few drinks ;)
Nationals this Sat :D looking forward to lepak session with Wes & Halim (:

And yes, thank you for the post! :D
It was so sweet of you to do so, really appreciate it (:

back in the old town

  Omg, look at Umar! (: so cute

 2/11 <3

 Pris & Andriche (:

 Awww,  the male version of PPG!

 AWWWWW.

 Yi Da, Norizwan, Martin & Mel (:

 Omg, i'm the only one studying. Seesh, so geekish!

 hahas, so mel-ish!

 Me, Karin, Shann! (:

 Mich's socks are the sex! 

Terence is in it! (:

Day four - bullet your day

hmmm, guess it means just summarising your day right?

so here it goes :

slept, woke up, baby-sit lil cous, went back to Qihua,

catched up with Qihuaians, had a hell of a time. Lazed behind the Lappy and studied (:

hahas, realised that i've not been doing the 30 day challenge so i decided to do so. Today was a very sentimental day?

met girlfs under the Shann's old block and went to Qihua :D

A sense of belonging, the place where i grew up. All the memories made there, the strong friendship forged, those sweet sweet times. The first person i saw was Zakri and the first thing he said to me was " Wth, why you so short?! " what a "nice" thing to say!

Sneaked Nabil and the rest into school (: me shann eunice mich nabil kelvin zakri were reminiscing bout the good old days we had together. Omg, it was hilarious. Hahas, we were all so childish & immature last time. But oh well, we did have our fair share of fun too. I think everyone will never forget Sean Lim & Priscellia's "WEDDING".

so here is how it goes. Back in 2003, Sean had this major crush on Pris and they decided to get MARRIED. So our class, 2/11 was very bonded and all and we decided to help out in the wedding (:

some of us made wedding invitations, some bought food, some tore paper into lil bits to throw at them. So the invitation goes something like this :

YOU'RE INVITED TO SEAN & PRIS'S WEDDING

DATE : TODAY

PLACE : ECO-GARDEN

TIME : RECESS

hahas, so everyone was very excited bout it and Sean even brought a ring, Omg see he was so serious bout it. All of us skipped recess or ate real quick just to attend the wedding of the year!

As they walked down the "aisle" hand in hand, all of us made the musci " DANG DANG DANG DANG". And someone said the vows. HAHAHS, come to think of it, it was sooooo cute & sweet. Awwww.

Another thing i clearly remember is that in Pri 3, my class made this ICE & WATER club. In our school foyer, we have 8 huge pillars and we played ICE & WATER there but only students from my class were allowed to join. in order to save the victims, we would either form human chains or use our wallets,shoes,waterbottles to save them. Hahas, so cute right? and not to mention creative! But in Pri 4, we decided to open up the club to any one as many others desperately wanted to join :D

so that's two of my wonderful moments in Qihua! Omg and the last one is something i'll never forget! my first time emcee-ing on stage. Hees, my partner in crime is none other than SYAFAIE!

hell yeah, Syafaie & I are like the best partners on Earth! We were the emcees for some concert & i was super nervous. and to make things worst, all of my malay friends were like " WHOOOOO SYAFAIE & ERNCHI SIOL" omg, our faces were flushed! But i had loads of fun of course (:

i love my primary school days, it was so stress-free & not to mention hell loads of fun. Everyone was so innocent then. Nothing to worry about, just have fun.

Shann & Eunice let me watch your video today :D

i swear, you looked smokin hot! I was smiling like an idiot when i spotted you, all dressed up. my eyes never left your sight.

your dance was awesome & sexy. I was literally screaming. OMG. HOT! yeah bby, you looked hot.

Granduncle passed away today :(

though i'm not close to him but its kinda sad though.

Mumsy said we had to go down to the wake & help out tomorrow night cause they lack man-power.

Recently, i've been anticipating my mornings because a certain someone has been very sweet & leave me surprise morn texts :D it never fails to make me smile and it brings joy as each day passes. THANK YOU, YOU! :D you've been here for me whenever i need you, to lend me a listening ear or just crap with me. And trust me, you won't get hanged if there is such a law :D I'LL BE THE FIRST TO GET HANG FOR SURE

yet again, you have to disappoint me, disappoint us. :(

p/s : you're fuckin hot :D