Perfect.

 [drafted at 1am, 31st Jan]

Note: There initially was a paragraph but there was some issues with the internet & it was all gone.

[drafted again at 6.07pm, 31st Jan]

Its kinda annoying that I have to re-type what I wanted to post. So today wasn't exactly a very good day & I heard stuff about a particular person, which made me even more pissed but that's not gonna ruin the mood I have for this post. 

SO LET'S START.

So I had by far the best Wednesday ever since 2013. (: As usual I headed down to the kindergarten to see my kiddos and all. Guess what, Jethro drew a picture for me & gave it to me. *heart melts. Kids are really sweethearts, because whatever they do its from the bottom of their heart, so full of sincerity & love. Nothing more, nothing less. I mean, how "evil" can kids get right? And they have and can give the best kind of love any human being can give.

In the evening, went for dinnz @ Manhattan, talked about school & what not before catching Hansel & Gratel. It was quite good except it was kinda gory & for the dudes, you'll enjoy that few minutes where the good witch strips down naked & you can see her left boob. But the main leads were really hot! So we went down to the basement to get stuff and got maggie mee cause his bunk was out of food & then we just sat outside to wait for his friend.

I'm not gonna go into details but I really really had a great time. I think "great time" is an understatement. Because the silence was just so comforting, it was exactly what I needed.

And to be honest, it has been so long since I was this happy. I could skip my way home and sing happy songs. As I was walking back, I couldn't stop smiling and giggling because I just couldn't contain how happy I was.

I really can't wait to see you again. I think I wanna see you right now, this very moment.

I don't know what's gonna happen from here but I just want to get to know you better & enjoy every moment with you. I finally have the courage to remove the walls that I once built around my heart.

To live to the fullest.

For the past two weeks, I wasn't really accomplishing one of my important New Year Resolutions & that is to be happy, no matter how the day turned out. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't in those emo-nemo kind of sadness but more of angst & was stressed out by the datelines & projects.

As the week is almost over, I'm kinda thankful because all my projects are done ( FINALLY!) and I can fully concentrate on my Indi Presentation & Exams. So when I found this picture, I thought it was very motivating & real cute (:

I'm gonna work even harder to achieve my New Year Resolution from today onwards & this picture shall be my motivation :D

Got to meet the guy bestf last night, really glad that he called me down because I really needed a break & needed some guy talk. Thank you for the talk, because it really got me thinking as I was walking back. Maturity. Hahah don't worry, 10 years down the road we'll see if what you say is true (;

I think the best way to enjoy with your friends ain't those posh places but by simple pleasures. Guess what we were doing most of the time, shooting crushed ice at each other. I sucked at it cause it was my first attempt & I think Halim was really entertained by my failed-attempts but it was the happiest two hours I had the entire week.

So blessed to have Halim as my best guyf though he's an ass 90% of the time, he really helped me see through my decisions, guiding me as I go along & I'm really grateful for all that you've taught me. (:

I'm gonna gym & swim every week now because the after-feel is just so good :D plus its really healthy.

I can't wait for Wednesday because I'm gonna spend it with the humans that make me very happy. (: maybe, I'll take the time to get to know you better & enjoy the process of knowing you for you.

XX.

Quickie

Hello guys, finally having some "me" time after so long. But the guilt is kinda eating me up because there is still tons of things waiting to be done :( Argh school's sucha burden now. Assignments, Presentations & Exams. Not really very exciting or interesting. But, January is passing really fast, a little too fast indeed.

2013 is really flying by, or is this because I'm growing older? As we age, the time seems to pass so fast that at times, we forget to slow down and cherish what we have.

So much negativity revolving around me last week & I hated every single bit of it. Bleah. Sorry guys, for ranting off to my usuals. Despite them being so optimistic, I was still very negative myself. Really really glad to have Eunice, thank you so much for talking to me & calming me down when I was in a mess. Love ya babe <3 font="font" nbsp="nbsp">

And of course, Sunday Morning was my bbygs & Ashiddiq for Nisa's 18th (: Surprise success. Thanks you guys for making my weekend a better one.

xx.

Dead Beat

Hahaha, had a really good laugh after seeing this snippet from That's So Raven. One of my favourite childhood Disney show that would never fail to crack me up all the time (':

I'm sorry for the lack of updates & there's more to come till my assignments are handed up because there is really so much at the back of my neck. Assignments after assignments, tasks after tasks  sigh pie its like a never-ending tedious cycle.

 And the past few night wasn't really that productive because I was so shaggy that I turned it really early. Must be the signs of aging :( yeah it has to be it. I'm turning 18 in less than a month.

Thankfully, my group mates & I finished the tedious ones during Dec so we have much lesser work to do as compared to the rest! Teehees, it really pays to get the work done early!

This week is kind of like my first actual week of school because I had e-learning last week & the week before, my classes were all cancelled for one tut so technically its two hours of class. The monday blues were so bad, I wished I was at home :(

But the rest of the days went great & hopefully this week will turn out great (; And since half of the week has passed, I'm sure it'll end with a good note!

Went down to the kindergarten today to give myself a little break & really, the best way of relaxing is to be with kids because they are such joys. I felt so blissful around them & teehees, Jethro was a sweetheart. He came to me and said :

" Teacher, you very small, very cute. I very love you. "

Instant heartmelts. And that, just made my day.

XX.

Boohoo

As promise, pictures from Day1. Shall elaborate more the next post cause I'm gonna hit the sacks right now. 

#premondayblues already kicking in, sigh pie :( C'mon let's get this week over & done with!

XX.

Sacred

I've been leaving this space empty for too long, sorry guys :(

Apparently, my lappy has been giving me problems so I had to bring it for servicing. I know this may sound weird but I can't blog without my laptop. ( alright don't judge).

Had e-learning the whole week but it was pretty much packed with school fieldtrips, consults && going down to the kindergarten. So it wasn't that much of a break but it was good in a way. A break from school and all (:

O Level result was out && I'm so darn proud of all my juniors and the Sec 5s cause they did tremendously well :D so proud to be from YT man. It was the best in YT History so *happy dance. All the hardwork and effort put in by both the students & teachers really paid off. Hehs.

As always, there's a never-ending list of things to do but I'm gonna get them done ASAP and not procrastinate. Argh, that terrible habit of mine & others. Gotta do something about it.

Had a very good friday noon with Daniele (: Icecreams and chit-chats about anything is always so good! Thank you so much for the prezzie, love it to bits! So blessed to have met you, honest.

Time to get some loose ends done & I'll prolly blog about my getaway to Hainan Island (;

xx.

All I know is that a part of me will still care for you. But the best thing that you can do for me is to stay away from me now, because that's the next best thing to do. You can't be fickle-minded and just come back as and when you like. Have you ever spared a thought about me? Y'know how difficult it is for me to move on & now that I have, please let me recover a 100%.

I just love being around you, physically or virtually.

The Haircut

Remember in my previous post, I said I was going to chop off my locks, I REALLY DID IT. (I'm still in a state of shock from the haircut)

FROM THIS,

.................

TO THIS.

I know that this is a really drastic change & to be honest, the last time I had such short hair was like 8 years back when I was in Primary 3!! So I think its normal that I was really really very scared & worried. I mean, c'mon I have had long hair like since forever & to cut them off is really a Huge thing for me. Okay, maybe its just a GIRL THING.

Some of you might be wondering why I had my hair cut if I was so afraid & paranoid about it. Well, for starters, my hair is pretty damaged with all the split ends and it is really very dry (due to straightening & dyeing) so for my hair to be/look healthy once more, I have to get rid of the whole bunch.

Next, I actually had the idea of cutting it short last year but I was really worried how the outcome will be so I chickened out but recently, my bbyg took a big step by cutting her long hair & it turned out so good hence it kinda kicked me to have one.

So, TADAH. The comments, texts & whatsapps I received are hilarious! Hahaha, some were saying how it suited me while others (Toh QH) were deadly against me ever cutting to such a short length. And the best part is, my own Father couldn't recognise me. HAHAHAH!

Had school for like two hours today before heading down to town to meet Wes & Kirk. Lunched @ Ion before going to The Salon for my haircut. Thanks you guys for the meet up & accompanying me to get my hair cut, esp Kirk.

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Fell asleep halfway while blogging :/

If Kirk wasn't in town, I think the next time I'll meet Wes will be like months from now cause we're both busy or we both assume that we're busy hence no one makes the first move to ask the other party out.

Wes is sucha weird guy. Okay, not weird just a fella who doesn't wear his heart on his sleeve, something I managed to conclude after knowing him for 4 years. He's not that kind of guy who'll say cheesy stuff in your face but prefers doing so behind a screen. In front of others, he'll act like a major ass (its so bad that you might just wanna punch him in his face) but when its just you & him, he might pour his heart out.

I just had to take a picture of my hair :'( Its so long!! After having my hair cut, there was a pile of hair surrounding my chair. A pile, is an understatement. Too bad I forgot to take a snapshot of it. :(

So that's my short hair for you guys! (:

XX.

Blessed.

Sup guys! (: I'm gonna have multiple posts a day because there's so much to blog about, especially my trip. Teehees!

I just received the best news today, my classes are all cancelled & I only have two hours of tuts this week, followed by e-learning next week :D so that's practically a month off. Hallelujah! *doing happy dance

For the past two weeks I've been dreading school but now that its a new year, I guess I should get rid of that thought. Think Positive :D well, that's a good start to a new year. I'll try my best & if all doesn't go well, at least I tried. Maybe its the fear, the fear of being excluded.

Okay, this may sound kinda weird, coming from me but at times, I have that kind of fear. Yes, me is not perfect either. But when I have this feelings or this terrible thoughts, I always remember what my tutor will tell me "Having a close bunch of friends will do. These are the ones that stay, while the rest will or might leave in a way or another."

I've halfway put to use that piece of advice. And one of my resolutions is to get it a 100&. I'm not there yet but I'm trying. I guess I'm a needy person, with a constant need of a companion. Don't get me wrong, I do have those days when I enjoy walking alone in town or just having some me time too but sometimes its good to have someone. And that's why I'm so blessed to have the bestests with me.

There was no class today so I met the bestests for a study date @ Bucks (; but before that I made a short trip to the kindergarten && the place was so beautiful after the renovation! And I saw my lil joys! & my darling Rian. Can't wait for Friday. #stoked

Met Syafiq, Khai along the way, so good to see familiar faces. And I've made a decision, a decision I hope that I wouldn't regret .....

I'm cutting my hair short!!!

I actually had this thought long ago but I was really afraid that it'll turn out bad cause the last time I had my hair short was when I was 9? So I ditched the idea. But recently, I saw my bbyg cutting her hair & it turned out great! And I'm finally granting my mummy's wish & shutting her naggings by finally cutting it. Went round asking my friends' opinion & they all gave me the thumbs up (: so, I'm gonna head down to my aunt's tomorrow with Wes & Kirk accompanying me. Cross my fingers that it'll turn out great, if not I'll be screwed big time.

Shall show you guys my new haircut tomorrow (;

Stay tuned guys!!!

Closure to 2012.

Note that this is gonna be a long post, so if I bore you guys, I apologise for that & you guys can cancel the site away. (:

So here goes .......

 The clique. (L)

I can lose all my friends but never will I lose them. Heh, I know this may sound really corny but I think it is indeed possible to have best friends forever because we've proved that it is possible. 11 years & counting of friendship, so proud of ourselves & there are more years to come. They deserve the BFF title because we've seen each other grow & mature. Along the way, we might have our fair share of quarrels but it helped us understand each other better & brought us even closer. I thank God every single day for each of your existence in my life & each time I look back at my past memories, you girls will always be in it. You've seen me at my best & my worst but never once did you all judged me. Others could've turned their backs on me but I can count on you three to lend me a shoulder & a listening ear. Despite our busy schedules & different commitments, I'm really glad we can find time for each other & continue updating each other bout our lives. When I gave up on everything & myself, you three didn't but cheered me on instead. We're gonna see each other grow to be young ladies, date guys, getting our hearts broken, meeting the right one, get married & of course have kids. And I'm looking forward to that day with you three. I really cannot thank you three enough & I love you all till I can't love no more. XX.

 Teammies. 

I don't know how we became this close but I'm really glad it happened. Training are always fun with you guys & I love how we're always helping each other out & getting the team together. We're one heck of a crazy trio but we're cool that way (; I love our impromptu chit-chat sess @ 363 where we just bull the night away, our outings to town & how tight we are like we aren't separable. I'll try my very to come down for training more often :p && know that I'll still root for the two of you though I won't be going to Phuket with you two. Have faith in you guys (: & i love you guys truckloads.

   

 12th. 

My awesome 12th, I really appreciate you guys for being there for me cause you guys always get where I'm coming from. Despite the three of you being so busy in JC, i'm really glad that we have lunch/dinnz at least once a month. (: Updating about school & talking about our entire SC journey. I'm glad that our love for SC is still within us & how we have this sense of pride whenever we go back to see our juniors. Thank you for being there for me when I needed you all & for cheering me up when I was down. I think we've really grown since the day we stepped into YTSC, how we had major fights, how we stepped up as a batch, over-coming shit that was thrown to us, bringing SC to a whole new level on our own & being the best batch ever. I don't know how to put our entire experience into words but all I know is that whenever I look back, a smile will be formed on my face because I've taken so much from it all. Know that we'll always be there for each other no matter what, love you guys so so much!

 Syafiq, the best partner in the century.

I swear we have the best chemistry that no partners have. This year, I'm exceptionally grateful for you. I don't know how you do it but you always surprise me with texts or calls when I'm feeling blue. Since day 1 of poly, you told me to work hard & to do well for my studies & that we'll get through this together. When exams were around the corner, you'll make sure that I'm coping well & having enough rest. You'll find me when you need someone to get you back on track & vice versa. Thank you so much for the love & care that you've given. Omg we're really like awesome partners & we couldn't have been if Yan Lin didn't bond us to be such close partners. I could not ask for a better partner like you & I love you for every single thing. When things got rough, you were constantly giving me advices, protecting me from getting hurt over & over again. And I was really glad when I told you " I'm over him" cause it made your effort worthwhile but I believe that the real reason why you're glad is because I've finally seen the truth & I won't get hurt no more.

TKD dudes.

 Halim

 Kai Jun

 Wister

Daniele.

I can write a paragraph for each of you but I've already said what I have wanted to say to you all in my Christmas card. To sum it all up, I'm really glad that I met you guys (at different timings) & that you guys were the ones that stayed. The social circle is Tkd isn't very big but neither is it that small. Along the years, I've made a few good ones & some have left but I'm really thankful that you guys didn't. Besides meeting you guys during tournies, we meet at town mostly for catch-up sess and what not but we all know that its not easy finding time to do so because of school, your trainings & other commitments. Thankfully, we're always texting, calling or oovoo-ing each other (: Thank you Halim for being the best guy friend ever. Staying up late to talk to me, be it bullshit, ranting or just giving me advices. The things you do for me, I'm always very appreciative of them. And thank you for keeping to your promise, for always being here for me no matter what comes. Thank you Wister for always initiating outings with me despite you having to book in for NS & all. And i always cancel out on you cause of my busy schedule but I'm glad you understand (: Thank you Kai Jun for lending me a ear. I know its been awhile since we've talked but I'm really glad that Halim asked you to come along that day & we managed to catch-up on so much that we've missed out. That convo we had that day meant alot to me, I'm not the only one going through shit. Our silly convos & vain pictures really brings a smile to my face always. I know that I'm not alone through this cause you'll be there. And lastly, Daniele. Its a blessing to have met you, honestly. You're someone really special & I'm really loss at words for everything. The nicest dude ever! You know everything I wanna say cause I told you before during dinner & I meant everything I said. Really really glad that I met you. (: You guys are always here for me, taking time after training to talk to me, making me laugh always. Thanks dudes, you guys are like the best.

 Changs. XX.

I love every single one of you, period. I love how close we are & the stuff we do despite the age gap among us. I love you all for being so strong when Gong Gong & Po Po passed away. I love you all for being closer than before despite losing our beloved grandparents. I feel so blessed because not every family is as tight as we are, not saying that other families aren't tight. I'm really glad to be part of the Changs cause we're like the coolest family ever. I love every one of you for who you are & that you guys are the best gift that God has ever given to me. A family that loves me.

 Aaron.

 Swee Liang.

You two have seen me at my lowest point two years back, where I was crying my eyes out for almost a month. I was a love-sick fool who constantly talked & talked about the same fella for 2 years. I know you guys are prolly sick of them but never once did you all utter a word but listened, woke me up & helped me move on. Time & time again I let you guys down but you woke up me. Aaron, I think its really cool that we've been texting for 2 years straight, never missing a day. There might have been days where we had very simple texts like " Morning!", " How's your day so far?" & " Goodnight! (: " But they still mean alot to me. Sometimes it feels that you're the senior while I'm the junior cause the things you've taught & explain to me really woke me up. I know that I was a mess, for a minute I was so determined to move on & the next I was missing him so bad. I could go on for days & days about the same thing over and over again & you've must be thinking "here we go again" I think you spent 2 years telling me to move on. Days when I felt so helpless & good for nothing, you brought out the best in me & gave me the confidence to give it a shot. Thank you so much for everything. Swee Liang, I never thought that we'd be such close friends cause I had a really bad impression of you from the start but after hanging out with your clique, I realised that you were not the person you portrait to be. You've brought out another paradigm of life & made me see them clearer. Although he was your good friend, you didn't blindly take sides but instead helped me to move on. I disappointed you time & time again but you never once left me & even lent me a shoulder to cry on. I was really touched by what you did during Teacher's Day, I really needed it. And now that I've done it, you guys deserve the credit.

My bbygs.

Hello sayangs, I missed you babies so so much. I miss classes with the both of you cause I've not been so nonsensical in school & its just not the same with you girls. But thankfully we still meet up once in awhile. Nisa, your As are here & i'm very certain you'll work hard for it. Can't wait for you & Ashiddiq to get married & have cute lil babies, awww! Hehs, my all-time favourite couple. <3 all-time="all-time" among="among" babes.="babes." bbyg="bbyg" but="but" can="can" cause="cause" corrupted="corrupted" feels="feels" font="font" for="for" girls="girls" home="home" horny="horny" i="i" it="it" know="know" like="like" love="love" meet-up="meet-up" most="most" my="my" next="next" now="now" one="one" re="re" sarah="sarah" sayang="sayang" still="still" t="t" the="the" tsk="tsk" us="us" wait="wait" with="with" you="you">

xx.