RANDOM MESSY THOUGHTS

Wished I was more consistent in terms of blogging & updating this space with my happenings on a weekly basis because I've forgotten quite a few events that happened. In order to recall, I needa look through my photos (which is in a mess & I need to organize it). 

This post is just a collection of my thoughts with no particular sequence or groups or whatsoever. I initially wanted to blog about events but I've not organized or upload my photos because it's been on my to-do list for the longest of time but I can't seem to find the time or energy to do so. So annoyed at myself when I can't clear my own padlock.

1// To-do List

If you don't know, I'm a sucker for to-do list. I have one in my head which I mentally try to note down things I have to do & attempt to sequence them. I make to-do lists for the littlest things as well. To sum it up, I just need to see the concrete list of things I need to do to keep me organized and in place if not nothing gets done by the end of the day. 

But one thing I hate most - not being able to clear the things I really need to complete for months. Then they start building up. For example, organizing photos in my lappy. I really need to get it done because I wanna share the happenings of my life & what a better way to do it with photos. Photos speak a thousand words & it'll be a really good walk down memory lane for the future me. *note to self, get it done.

CHI'S TO-DO LIST

1. ORGANIZE PHOTOS (PRONTO)
2. Download Tunes
3. Get rid of old tunes

This is it as of now, till I have more stuffs to get done. 

Oh yeah, I needa save for my lomo-camera which I've been wanting for ages.

2// Kai

What more can I say? This fella is tailored for me in every single way I can ever think of. My 15 year old heart was right despite what others said & I'm glad that I followed my heart because I've never ever regretted my decision. I doubt I'll ever love another like how I love Kai, he is without doubt, my soulmate.

Was telling Kai earlier on how I feel that there's a spell casted on our relationship - a good one of course. Because since Day 1, our relationship has never changed, but went even better than each passing day. Not that ours was bad or anything to begin with. 15 months with this boy & it still feels like I'm falling head over heels with him every single minute of the day. Ever since I got into this relationship, I've learnt one very important thing that Kai taught me and that is "Honeymoon periods don't end till you declare it."

And that is really true. I've chunk away the idea of how honeymoon periods last for the first three months then everything just goes downhill/normal (?). Now, I think that it is pure bullshit. Even the idea of "honeymoon" periods is plain stupid, really. These lovey-dovey periods can last for a lifetime, it is just dependent on both parties and the effort they are willing to put in. My relationship with Kai is a living proof to me that honeymood periods don't exist. 15 months going on 16 & I still feel like we're in our honeymoon period.

Whenever I think about Kai, I can churn out an essay. He's perfect to me.

This relationship has taught me so much & I'm beyond blessed for every single thing it has given to me. I am indeed the luckiest girl in the world.

I'm sucked into this whirlpool where I sometimes feel that I just want to be around Kai every minute of the day & that itself makes me happy. I could spend an entire day finding myself lost whilst looking into his eyes. Is this the highest state of being in love?

It sometimes annoy me how I can't put into words the state of being in love and being so immensely blessed. I'm just in love teehees.

What Kai & I have right now, the connection, the chemistry, the amount of comfort and how comfortable I am with him, I can never ever find it with anyone else. This I am certain of. We're good for each other. We grow as individuals, we grow as a whole ; there's no who-loves-who-more because we both love each other more ; we hardly quarrel because we throw our ego aside when we're in the wrong & never blame each other for anything.

I feel the butterflies everytime I lay eyes on you & how your eyes sparkle when our gaze meet. Human kind is weird in a good way because you can never explain how some people just click the moment they meet & how their frequency, thoughts and perspective can be nearly identical. We do the craziest of things and laugh at nothing but I wouldn't wanna do any of them with another being except you.

I can't wait to continue growing with you, hitting milestones together & then starting a future together with you. I can't wait to unfold all that is ahead of us and then see the world with our hands entwined. We're gonna create adventures of our own, adventures that no one can replicate except us.

I love you for all that you are & will ever be.

See, told you guys that I write essays so naturally when Kai is the main topic.

[stopping right here because it's time I crashed]

Till the next time, I'll complete the next few points (;

3// Curfews (the annoying existence of it)

4// Internship

5// Future

BREATHER

In the midst of doing research right now because without the data needed, my group & I can't move on. Just a quick update: CHI IS HAVING INTERN NOW.

4th day of Internship & it feels like it's my 4th week/month because there is so much to do & the pile of work doesn't seem to decrease AT ALL. Plus the flu bug isn't exactly helping my situation. But I'm thankful for such supportive and forward-looking groupmates which makes the experience so much more enjoyable, fun & worthwhile.

"I have so much to update", I always say this but I just can't find the time to do so.

Feeling rather shagged already though it's only the first week of internship & I can foresee more late nights and shaggy episodes. Literally brain-fried at this point so please pardon this irrelevant and messy post because I just needed a breather.

Deadlines. Expectations. Deadlines. No time. Too much to do.

These are constantly running through my mind & it'll be shit if the whole plan doesn't work out because we've put in wayyyy to much effort and time into this whole research thing. Dead tired and my mind's not working but I gotta press on, go Chi!

Meeting Kai for dinnz tomorrow, best motivation ever.

Next stop, Internship.

Yupp, the next stop for Kai & I will be our internships. Kai's will start on the 8 of Sept while mine begins a week later, 15 of Sept. Internship will be really interesting for us because:

1) Kai's duration of Intern is 6 weeks while mine, on the other hand, is 3 months. Because his school wants them to focus entirely on their FYP in year 3 hence during the Sem break, he'll be having intern instead.

2) My workplace is at Little India MRT while Kai's is at Joo Koon. Obviously we're far away from each other :( technically the other end of SG- apart.

3) Once Kai's 6 weeks of intern is up, he'll start school. I'll still be interning & completing my projects. But by then, we're much closer to each other (in terms of location, thank goodness).


I've been going on and on about Intern so where am I interning?

I'll be interning at DAS, Dyslexia Association of Singapore. Along with 3 other coursemates of mine (: I'm really looking forward to my internship because I've been told that most seniors who've worked at DAS all had alot of fun while working and of course, took back so much learning experience from their time there. Since the association focuses mainly on Dyslexia, we're gonna be focusing on English Language, something that I'm really interested in because we get to do activities like story-telling, Drama, theatre etc. (I hope). But nonetheless, I can't wait to see what awaits me. 

After attending the pre-intern briefing, there is so much to do apart from going to work. There's projects, big and small. No wonder they say Year 3 is tough, it's cray I tell you but with the right company of friends & attitude, it's all gonna be fine!


What I've been up to the past few days

Hmmm let's see:

On Monday. I headed back to school for a 2 hours worth of pre-intern briefing & then headed over to my Godma's to just lepak there & spend time with them. 

On Tuesday. Shit, I can't remember what I did :/ Wait, let me check. Give me 3 mins please (: Oh yeah!! It was my run-errands Tuesday. Hahaha, my goldfish memory hehs. Yeah, so I basically ran errands & also went for an express mani/treatment which was really cheap.

On Wednesday. Headed back to school for a 9AM-5PM grooming workshop which I really benefited from it, not because I suck at grooming HAHAHA, but because I really got to learn stuffs like my face shape, body type, types of colours that suits me, more about my dressing type etc. 

Then I met Kai (after 8 days!!) for groccery shopping & dinnz. Before Kai sent me home, we paid Eunice & Teddy a visit keke. Kai always wanted to see the birds & Teddy but never made a date because he was so busy and now, he finally did.

On Thursday. Headed over to Kai's cause we had a cooking date. We made breakfast - Bacon Pancakes & lunch -  Salmon, Mash & Salsa. Then we started building our Nano blocks before heading down to the carpark to cruise on Kai's new skateboard. It was a really happening day for us with so many activities to do.

Took out some time for Kai to practice Ollie whilst on the way back to my place. Was so fascinated by it that I decided to try. Thanks to Kai, I'm now really hooked on to learning to skate & ollie ( I did my first successful attempt btw just now, so darn proud of myself). Guess every weekend that we're both free, I'm gonna spend a bit of it with the board teehee.

On Friday. Headed over to Kai's around 11 plus, for brunch. Love love love Kai's bacons & eggs, they're always so good. Quite thankful that both of us can cook cause I know that we won't go hungry in the future & our future kid(s) is/are in good hands with full bellies. Then we just lazed around, watching shows, being our usual selves just making fun of each other and annoying each other, Kai helped me with my mask (my boyf plays many roles hahaha) before we accompanied his Sissy to her check-up for her eye.

Had dinnz, lepak more at his place, before we headed down to practice Ollie (which I managed to do once successfully kekeke) & then headed home. Exceptionally loved today's journey home because we were laughing our way home. I don't know how it started but we just crapped, did stupid stuff and laughed till my tummy hurt. Really am glad to have spent the past few days with Kai after so long of not having quality time together. It's a good recharge before intern and a celebration for our busy past months. 

I'm really happy to be spending it with no one other than you.

(Pictures up next post, hehe plus our vids)

XX.