Wished I was more consistent in terms of blogging & updating this space with my happenings on a weekly basis because I've forgotten quite a few events that happened. In order to recall, I needa look through my photos (which is in a mess & I need to organize it).
This post is just a collection of my thoughts with no particular sequence or groups or whatsoever. I initially wanted to blog about events but I've not organized or upload my photos because it's been on my to-do list for the longest of time but I can't seem to find the time or energy to do so. So annoyed at myself when I can't clear my own padlock.
1// To-do List
If you don't know, I'm a sucker for to-do list. I have one in my head which I mentally try to note down things I have to do & attempt to sequence them. I make to-do lists for the littlest things as well. To sum it up, I just need to see the concrete list of things I need to do to keep me organized and in place if not nothing gets done by the end of the day.
But one thing I hate most - not being able to clear the things I really need to complete for months. Then they start building up. For example, organizing photos in my lappy. I really need to get it done because I wanna share the happenings of my life & what a better way to do it with photos. Photos speak a thousand words & it'll be a really good walk down memory lane for the future me. *note to self, get it done.
CHI'S TO-DO LIST
- ORGANIZE PHOTOS (PRONTO)
- Download Tunes
- Get rid of old tunes
This is it as of now, till I have more stuffs to get done.
Oh yeah, I needa save for my lomo-camera which I've been wanting for ages.
2// Kai
What more can I say? This fella is tailored for me in every single way I can ever think of. My 15 year old heart was right despite what others said & I'm glad that I followed my heart because I've never ever regretted my decision. I doubt I'll ever love another like how I love Kai, he is without doubt, my soulmate.
Was telling Kai earlier on how I feel that there's a spell casted on our relationship - a good one of course. Because since Day 1, our relationship has never changed, but went even better than each passing day. Not that ours was bad or anything to begin with. 15 months with this boy & it still feels like I'm falling head over heels with him every single minute of the day. Ever since I got into this relationship, I've learnt one very important thing that Kai taught me and that is "Honeymoon periods don't end till you declare it."
And that is really true. I've chunk away the idea of how honeymoon periods last for the first three months then everything just goes downhill/normal (?). Now, I think that it is pure bullshit. Even the idea of "honeymoon" periods is plain stupid, really. These lovey-dovey periods can last for a lifetime, it is just dependent on both parties and the effort they are willing to put in. My relationship with Kai is a living proof to me that honeymood periods don't exist. 15 months going on 16 & I still feel like we're in our honeymoon period.
Whenever I think about Kai, I can churn out an essay. He's perfect to me.
This relationship has taught me so much & I'm beyond blessed for every single thing it has given to me. I am indeed the luckiest girl in the world.
I'm sucked into this whirlpool where I sometimes feel that I just want to be around Kai every minute of the day & that itself makes me happy. I could spend an entire day finding myself lost whilst looking into his eyes. Is this the highest state of being in love?
It sometimes annoy me how I can't put into words the state of being in love and being so immensely blessed. I'm just in love teehees.
What Kai & I have right now, the connection, the chemistry, the amount of comfort and how comfortable I am with him, I can never ever find it with anyone else. This I am certain of. We're good for each other. We grow as individuals, we grow as a whole ; there's no who-loves-who-more because we both love each other more ; we hardly quarrel because we throw our ego aside when we're in the wrong & never blame each other for anything.
I feel the butterflies everytime I lay eyes on you & how your eyes sparkle when our gaze meet. Human kind is weird in a good way because you can never explain how some people just click the moment they meet & how their frequency, thoughts and perspective can be nearly identical. We do the craziest of things and laugh at nothing but I wouldn't wanna do any of them with another being except you.
I can't wait to continue growing with you, hitting milestones together & then starting a future together with you. I can't wait to unfold all that is ahead of us and then see the world with our hands entwined. We're gonna create adventures of our own, adventures that no one can replicate except us.
I love you for all that you are & will ever be.
See, told you guys that I write essays so naturally when Kai is the main topic.
[stopping right here because it's time I crashed]
Till the next time, I'll complete the next few points (;
3// Curfews (the annoying existence of it)
4// Internship
5// Future
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