Diamonds & Goldmines.

Visuals from the week.

Off day today so I headed down to my Lil Heaven to see my kiddos & though I was really tired (crashed at 2 in the morn with Halim), they really made my day. :D All my fave boys came in today & I was showered with many big, wet ones on my cheeks! 

Headed down to NP, to meet my Baobei Angela & Fiq. Pastamania for dinnz as always. God knows why I'm always having dinnz at Pastamania with the same company of people! But I was really starved & ordered the usuals. Craving Satisifed (; Had a really good catch-up with them & it is really comforting to meet my flag-raisers. (': 

Grabbed stuff & two good books before heading home.

Good day spent, love the company.

Y'know how at the end of the day, you just spend a noon, an evening, a night or whatever with your favourite people, just never fails to make your day/week, the comfort it brings. Yeah, that's how I feel right now. (':

XX.

Pastel Shades

I have a fetish for buns these few days & its because the weather is really really outrageously hot! Gosh I have no idea how I'm gonna survive the next few days with the blazing sun. Feel like going for a swim or a head down to the beach since these are the two best things to do on sucha hot day. (:

Spent my day in my room with the air-con on for the whole day yesterday watching my childhood cartoon Berenstain Bears! Hahahs, C'mon you're never too old for cartoons!

Went for gym in the morn @ Warren & its been so long I ran. Proud of myself for conquering 3.6km in gym! (Y). Whipped Mac for Lunch & I'm gonna do some notes.

Strong Urge to bake! Shall prolly do so this week or something.

Aren't those cupcakes gorgeous? (;

Back to Basics.

So, which are you in?

I Wish.

 THEY SAY LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT DOESN'T EXIST, TILL I MET HIM. IVAN.

 AND ITS BEEN AGES SINCE I SAW NAT :(

Visuals from the past week or so. Tons & tons of Oct babies! Aloy, Nic, Sir, Pearlyn, Godpa, Charis & Faith (: School's been ongoing quite okay, though there've been some hiccups once in awhile but overall its been pretty good. School's been draining me out & I end up throwing myself on the bed to just laze. On the bright note, my weekly sess @ the kindergarten has really uplifted my spirits & the lil ones are my happy pills.

Sometimes, I look at those spontaneous happy couples & wished that I found someone like they did. Someone who loves them entirely, nothing less but tons tons more. A guy who'll never be ashamed to announce to the world that you're his girl, a guy who'll call you babe/bby, a guy who'll spend time watching chickflicks or disney movies though he is not that into them. A guy who'll name your future kids, oh how cute!

But for me, I still think that the best kind of love would be those spontaneous fun ones. Pardon me for always repeating this point but I really love such relationships. There is always an element of fun & surprise in it, like how you'll pop a sweet into your mouth & after sucking it for a minute or two, you realise that it actually produces pop sounds because of some funny candy in it.

When will I ever find a guy like that?

XX.

Drenched.

No matter how many friends we make or how many people we meet, at the end of the day, who are the ones there for you? How many friends do we actually need? Maybe just a few.

First week of school & everything's going downhill. Not what I had in mind but oh wells. Been feeling angst all week & that's not good at all. In fact, I wished that Clique & the 12th were there. They were all I need. So many things that has been untold. You won't be able to understand it till you've really go through tough shit. 

What I've been emphasising all these while are hard to understand but one fine day, you'll see the light. Things that you all said, are things that I've tried & I know the entire outcome. Maybe, I should just step back so that I can view a clearer picture. The poly life is really tough, well not academically but socially? Mentally exhausted.

So maybe, in the end, I'm just a someone to you.

xoxo.

Caved In.

 let's stay in a castle just me & you (;

Sup guys! (: the week's been going pretty well, with the exception of me being really pissed at my student cause he's a major lazy kid. I'm totally cool with him not getting the correct answers but I get pissed when I know he's smart but just really lazy. Its annoying the shit out of me.

Am I the only one who actually prefers lessons in the mornz? Noon lectures just makes me all lethargic & restless. The dim lights in the Lect Halls ain't helping either. :/ But today was really great cause I had no classes so I headed down to the Kindergarten to see my qtpies :D It was really an "AWWWW ; GUSHES" moment when they just run towards you & strangle you with hugs. What a way to start my day (:

Spent the day away, soaking up every single ounce of love the kiddos gave & went down to CWP to get stuffs. Bused to give tuition & the boy had to ruin my evening. Let's not go there.

Met the Bestf under her block & had a lil chat before heading home. Had to call Aaron to rant & I must say, I really really miss that dude. Had dinnz, caught my show & here I am.

The weekends are coming, stoked for Sat (;

Had to end this off with this qt.

I hope I'm wrong cause, is that really how you view it?

XX.

Mr Jones.

First day of school today & it wasn't too bad. This sem's timetable mostly starts in the noon & I kinda hate it cause I rather lessons in the morn so that I can pretty much have the rest of the day to myself! Guess its time to adjust to study mode cause I was not focusing at all during afternoon lecture cause it was really really dry. And the Lecture theatre sucks, miss the one at Munch :( And Hungry Jack @ Makan Place is gone, so boo to that! :'( 

First assignment of the sem : make a self-intro vid of myself.

Cool shit huh.

p/s : sometimes I wonder how much do I weigh in your heart.

XX.

expectations VS reality

Finally understood I's life story and the whole idea behind it. Initially, when I told me about her experience and all, I just laughed it off thinking, "No way can that actually really happen." But i guess its actually happening.

What can i get out of this? Tons & tons of new learning points and of course, "different experiences results in different expectations." Its really really difficult to use words or sentences to explain & describe what I've been through & all the experience gained cause it'll prolly be thick enough to be written as a book. Guess different schools just instill different mindsets & values in everyone and therefore, the different expectations set.

So many assumptions made that results in miscommunication. What they saw wasn't the actual truth. Because I saw this coming that's why I didn't say anything but unfortunately, you saw it & guess that's where the shit starts. I didn't want to make it even an issue so I didn't tell you all how I really felt or why I was acting that way. But at the end of the day, it still leads back to the experiences which equals to expectations.

Perhaps if YT was given the same scenario, it'll prolly would've been a whole new level. Not that i'm trying to boast about my school, but I really am proud to tell everyone that I AM FROM YISHUN TOWN. The experiences & values taught, instilled and then applied is something not every school is able to achieve. You might be thinking, "yeah right? How good can it get?" But wait till you step one foot into YTSS then you'll get to see the big picture.

What were we taught? Well yes, besides the usual leadership qualities but we were taught to see the big picture, to check on ourselves, putting ourselves in others' POV etc etc. And not forgetting the high expectations to meet, the standards to keep up, our own goals to achieve & the strictness of it. 

Example :

Something huge & important was on-going, yes we'll side-track because we're only human but after a few minutes, we'll just know that we have something to complete & all this partying can be done later.

In fact, I'm really thankful for being able to be in SC where we've really taken back tons of skills & qualities that I can't even find it in poly camps. Its so weird how we actually know the entire planning procedure, the protocol followed or that've not been followed.

There was more to this, just that I didn't say it out. There was an internal struggle within me. Things are not actually how you all perceive it.

So maybe it'll be difficult for you all to get what I'm trying to tell you all but yeah, maybe I is right.

XX.

Found you.

Today was a really good day! (: I need to have more days like today. Just bumming around with good company, sinful food & cheap thrills.

Met Daniele @ Yishun before busing down to Thomson for some Bah Chor Mee. It was really good despite the oven hot weather then Daniele's phone kinda died off so we headed down to Thomson Plaza to get it fixed but it was kinda hopless. So we decided to hang at Bucks & as he was mentioning about his bestf, pop comes out Aris! Omg these two guys are really hilarious & big gays. Spent my noon laughing till my tummy ached.

Didn't know that Thomson is actually another food paradise & gosh ate Waffles & ice cream after that. Went hopping from ice cream parlour to parlour & I would wanna do it again. (: headed down to this coffee shop for Sugar Cane & went to this playground. Swear the kiddos there were very cute. Taught this boy to play with the swing, awww. Bused back to Woodlands & met Qing Huang at RP to teach him math. God knows when I actually touched those & it tool me some time to solve them. Qing Huang sent me back & here I am (:

really really a good day spent, never been this happy (:

Unfamiliarity

Black & Whites are simply fascinating. It brings out a kind of mysterious beautiful feel to the pictures taken & I can just go on and on about them, in fact I have a folder just for my Blacks & Whites.

Assignments handed up today & i'm glad that's over c: These two weekends have really been tiring yet the joy of seeing my old friends. Nationals. I really love going for it though its hot & humid in the stadium but having to catch up and seeing the old faces just makes it worthwhile.

Really proud of the team cause we've done pretty well this time round! (: 

I realised that as each year passes, the rules have changed a lil here or there and so has the atmosphere. A few years back, the entire sports hall would be filled with cheers, shouts & scream from the teams & it was a battle between the voices. You can see pom-poms, teams jumping & cheering while standing on chairs & it goes on and on. Anyone who steps into the sports hall immediately soaks up the atmosphere & just wants to be part of it too. But of course, times change & so has everything else.

Had a good mini lepak sess with my favourite fellas, Halim & Daniele :D Photos are up in the previous post. And not forgetting my long-time buddy Wes. (: really glad to see Keith, Kai Jun, Dom && tons more.

Having being attached to the Kindergarten, I really am not looking forward to leaving that place :( Esp my kiddos in the noon. Going over there is literally a thing i'll do without fail & i feel so fammy-ish with all the teachers. 

Bah Chor Mee Date with Daniele tomorrow, stoked for it! Gonna satisfy my pancakes craving (; 

xx.