expectations VS reality

Finally understood I's life story and the whole idea behind it. Initially, when I told me about her experience and all, I just laughed it off thinking, "No way can that actually really happen." But i guess its actually happening.

What can i get out of this? Tons & tons of new learning points and of course, "different experiences results in different expectations." Its really really difficult to use words or sentences to explain & describe what I've been through & all the experience gained cause it'll prolly be thick enough to be written as a book. Guess different schools just instill different mindsets & values in everyone and therefore, the different expectations set.

So many assumptions made that results in miscommunication. What they saw wasn't the actual truth. Because I saw this coming that's why I didn't say anything but unfortunately, you saw it & guess that's where the shit starts. I didn't want to make it even an issue so I didn't tell you all how I really felt or why I was acting that way. But at the end of the day, it still leads back to the experiences which equals to expectations.

Perhaps if YT was given the same scenario, it'll prolly would've been a whole new level. Not that i'm trying to boast about my school, but I really am proud to tell everyone that I AM FROM YISHUN TOWN. The experiences & values taught, instilled and then applied is something not every school is able to achieve. You might be thinking, "yeah right? How good can it get?" But wait till you step one foot into YTSS then you'll get to see the big picture.

What were we taught? Well yes, besides the usual leadership qualities but we were taught to see the big picture, to check on ourselves, putting ourselves in others' POV etc etc. And not forgetting the high expectations to meet, the standards to keep up, our own goals to achieve & the strictness of it. 

Example :

Something huge & important was on-going, yes we'll side-track because we're only human but after a few minutes, we'll just know that we have something to complete & all this partying can be done later.

In fact, I'm really thankful for being able to be in SC where we've really taken back tons of skills & qualities that I can't even find it in poly camps. Its so weird how we actually know the entire planning procedure, the protocol followed or that've not been followed.

There was more to this, just that I didn't say it out. There was an internal struggle within me. Things are not actually how you all perceive it.

So maybe it'll be difficult for you all to get what I'm trying to tell you all but yeah, maybe I is right.

XX.