Emptiness

Seesh, it's days like today that actually suck :( I don't know what's up with me.
Tsk, i hate it when my heart rules my head.

What a love-sick fool I am.
I actually silently prayed that God would give us a chance, but i guess not.

I have no idea what's through your mind, boy. Did you really miss me
Or was it just out of impulse. :/
shucks, you never fail to do that to me All the time.

Dejected, disappointed, crushed,
Hurt. That could just sum up how I feel now. I never put my guard up against you because i trusted you, believed
You. Though time and time you disappointed me but I never once lost that trust in you.

It's gonna be year, but I'm not a slightest bit over you. The impact you've made on me is just so great. Prolly because you were my first guy bestf and you were the love of my life.
And still is.

I'll always contain my happiness when i see you. I want to flash a huge grin and give you a hug so badly.
I wanna talk to you without feeling the least bit of awkwardness.

Everything, reminds me of you.
No matter what I talk about,
You'll be my topic. You revolve round my mind constantly, frequently, all the time. I wonder if you ever knew.

I love you more than you could imagine. I wanna walk down the aisle with you and spend my life with you.
Because you were everything I ever wished for, honest. You're that IT guy.

Friends have been constantly telling me nagging at me to forget you and move on. But I can't bring myself to.
I'll say I'm over you and such but whattheheck, they're just fibs.
I've to be strong and pretend I'm fine, pretend that I don't give a damn bout you but deep inside I'm so frail.
I'll be all smiles everyday
Cause I don't wanna people around me to unhappy.


Every night, you'll be in my prayers, always. I've never loved anyone this much. When I'm down, you're the
First to come my mind. I'll go through our pictures and just chuckle to myself, thinking how cute we were. (:

After typing it out, I feel a thousand times better :D I feel lighter! Don't bother reading those bullshit, it's just my way of destressing.

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.