HEAVY SHOULDERS

Yeah, it kinda feels like both my shoulders weigh a gazillion tonnes. Lately, thing aren't exactly going my way or I'm kinda out of luck. Going through a shit-hole for the past few days & I'm not exactly coping well with it. It feels like I have so much to weigh on myself & I cannot figure out what's exactly wrong or what should exactly I should do. I've been given too many, way too many solutions & I just don't know how. 

Eyes are stingy from all the crying & a really big thank you to Kaiwen because he listened to me cry like a big baby over the phone, repeating some stuff again & again, muffling my rants with occasional nose-sniffing, bawling. Bet he was trying to make out some stuff I said too. But thank you for being so patient with me, assuring me that things will be better & that he'll be there rain or shine.

Hopefully I'll work something out *cross fingers

 " Lately I've been, I've been losing sleep ....." I really have issues trying to head to bed early & get as much rest as I can but  I just have issues getting to bed early. Maybe it's because of my screwed body clock or maybe I think too much at night, but I think it's mainly because I dilly dally ALOT. So says the boy. Kaiwen always says I take my time doing stuff, god knows what stuff and that's why I end up sleeping late HAHAHAH that's true sort of.

What Ernchi does before she heads to bed

1. Catching up on one ep of show.

2. Shower.

After much effort of Kaiwen nagging, I get really really lazy at times.

3. Brush teeth.

4. Have a mental image of what I'm gonna wear tomorrow.

5. Takes clothes out. 

Either I'm satisfied with it or I choose another outfit. And this whole thing takes quite sometime at times.

6. Pack bag.

7. Walk around the house, I have no idea what I do either.

8. Reply kaiwen's goodnight text.

 Cause he sleeps earlier than I do but we always text unless he/I am busy etc.

9. Fiddle with my phone, browse through all social media.

10. Set alarm for next day.

11. Off light, lie in bed.

12. TOSS & TURN.

REPEAT STEP 12 A THOUSAND TIMES

13. Fiddle with phone because I can't sleep. Occasionally, spam Kaiwen with loads of nonsense & some love hehehe

14. SLEEP.

Enough of rants. Scratch all those negativity away, I FINALLY GOT MY HANDS ON AN IPHONE 5!!!!!!! *drumrolls please

Hahaha okay lah, I bet half of Singapore already owns one and I'm here acting all eggcited like a lil girl but whatever, I'm happy with it. Though it burnt a huge ass hole in my pocket but I'm happy. Time to be a budget barbie & start saving up again. Side note: I'm gonna be relieving my lil kiddos later, so stoked to see my lil ones after the holidays!

Happy 7th Monthsary, love. Love you many many many!!

XX.