Just a word.

Just a short post I had to blog before sharing my mini KL/Malacca Trip.

" I don't know how to feel. Sure, I do feel broken but strangely, it doesn't hurt that much because I'm used to it. "

That was what I was sharing with my bestests. And the immediate response I got from them was " WHAT DO YOU MEAN USED TO IT! YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE EVEN USED TO IT. "

(Yeah, my besties are really protective of me. Which is something I love about them) That made me think. I went on thinking about it, even during my trip. 

Side note: This getaway was really meaningful for me because I did tons of deep-thinking & I sorted out my emotions, thoughts and got things cleared.

Then my catch-up sess with Simon on Wednesday made things even clearer for me & in fact, I actually was able to view relationship from a whole new perspective. The reason why I love having such talks with Simon, always.

Conclusion: No one deserves to be numb or used-to being hurt. I actually jumped to a realization that others can hurt you but at the end of the day, it boils down to how you wanna take it. Yes yes, we are humans and humans do feel the hurt that others inflict upon us. But after all the drama, its your choice on how you want it to be. I'm stepping out of the "used-to-it" zone because I definitely deserve better.

And back to my very-first point: truckloads of thinking in Malaysia.

I actually realize how much you mean to me despite knowing you for a short while. And I figured I might kinda have screwed things a lil but I'm gonna fix it. Bet on your end you were confused. And, I really really missed you :(

xx.