SAVE ME FROM THIS INSANITY

Hello everyone, how has life been for you so far?

I had it crazy, insanity, absurdly & it goes on and on and on. So this month & August are the hectic assignments periods which explains why I need some saving from Insanity. This week was crazy because I had a lit review due & I didn't get it done till the day before submission. Because we had other assignments & group projs due next week so we're packed really tightly. 

No wait, my lit review was due today (Thursday, 5pm) & I stayed up all night on Wednesday and only went to bed today 6AM. I was sleeping soundly till I realize it was getting warm & stuffy then I woke up. My mum off the aircon apparently & after that, I just couldn't head back to bed. I'm not an easy sleeper so yeah, I couldn't get back to bed. What's worst is that because my sleep cycle was screwed, it felt like I was experiencing a jetlag. Bye bye appetite for the entire day.

I'm rather worried for next week because I either have a submission or presentation, everyday week next week. Maybe it's a wise idea to catch as much sleep as I can right now. Can't believe it's only the first submission & I'm maxed out, dead flat like a phone battery. SOMEBODY SAVE ME.

Right now, I'm watching 500 DAYS OF SUMMER (Daniele's recommendation) & heading to bed. Thank goodness Sissy's crashing at my grandma's so I have the entire room to myself & it feels good. Lights all off, me typing on my laptop, no one to bug me - kinda feels like I'm in my own bubble. I like that. A much needed escape that I need.

500 DAYS OF SUMMER.

Whenever I feel kinda bummed out because of my high expectations (I've been working on it for quite some time & I dare say that I've improve in terms of expecting, but still working on it), I'll divert myself to appreciating the little things & "add" them up to see that, "Hey wow, XX has really been silently doing so many things for me".

It's never good to expect so much. It's okay to expect because that's how you feel you deserve to be treated & if a person's treating you shabby, below how you expect to be treated then you better think twice if that person should be very involved in your life. High expectations is another thing, sky high, unrealistic etc. 

But then again, are expectations formed based on how much you'll invest/give to that person? For example, if you see yourself giving a 100%, will you expect the person to give a 100% too? Are expectations formed based on that thought? 

  "I don't wanna think that there's no need for little surprises or extra effort just because we're very comfortable in each other's skin. It's suppose to go a long long way. " I'd like to be on the receiving end too sometimes.

But with that above, you can't put a measurement or price tag on love, if you love, you love. Everything you do comes from the heart, even the simplest actions. It doesn't mean that the person doesn't love you just because he/she doesn't speak the same love language, they'll love you in their own way.

P/s: thank you for loving me in every way K.

XX.