Blocked Out.

It feels good to not catch up with the world's pace & slow down just for a day. Taking strides in my own comfort zone instead of always having to keep up with everyone's speed. Woke up at a time which my body approved & did things I wanted to do for the longest & catch up with my to-do list.

 Confession: I AM A BIG WORRIER.

This bad habit of mine has been with me since I was 10, yeah I tend to over-worry about situations which aren't going right to me. I worry about being a klutz, I worry about deadlines, I worry about the piled-up work, I worry. 

But when I don't worry, I really do not. I can't give a two-shoots about the slightest thing & do what I really want to do. I'm on the extremes of the line & never in the middle where I can worry yet cut myself some slack in the process simultaneously. And that is so damn bad but I'm still figuring out a way to get it balance, so hopefully I can find a solution to it soon. (:

 I need a good break, a long sleep or something. My body & mind has been failing me the past week & the fatigue is very over-whelming. I can prolly sleep on the streets if I could. Immediately lie on the sofa & I end up sleeping, that's how tired I am. To compare with me after camp & now, I'm most definitely shaggier now. And guess what, I DID NOTHING! 

 Body definitely showing signs of rebelling & I just gotta listen to it and take a breather.

I wanna drown in my thoughts with someone. Someone whom I can be entirely myself with, someone who would listen, someone who would  have such deep talks with me. And, I think I know who in mind (;

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I felt a lil helpless after reading what you blogged, I didn't know that so much was happening. I ached a lil inside knowing that you've been going through so much but ached even more knowing that I can't do nuts to help you. If only you would open up to me & let me help you. You don't know, don't know how much we love you & how you make us all proud always. I'm sorry that you don't see all that, believe me I really want to help but I just don't know how. Pains me so much to see you have such thoughts.

xx